My little "son"shines

*Just a warning. This is definitely a journal entry and is probably going to get pretty gushy and long.* It really is incredible how much you can grow to love your children more and more with time. I know that sounds super corny, but I think back when Chase was born holding that brand newborn baby and being absolutely head over heels in love. The momma bear in me was born and I swore I would never let a single thing or person harm my beautiful baby. I didn't think I could possibly love TWO kids the same amount. I thought for sure I'd have a favorite and in fact I was very afraid I would. But then Landon came along and proved me more than wrong. Sometimes I feel that indeed my heart just might explode and sometimes I think it does a little when those uncontrollable tears come streaming out of my eyes just thinking about my precious boys. I.love.these.boys. I hope they know it. Chase is growing up so fast in such a short amount of time. He is like a miniature version of Kyle. So responsible, worried, and striving for perfection. I often have to say to him, "Hey! Who's the mommy?" He says back authoritatively, "You are!" to which I say, "OK then let me be." He is my biggest helper and will jump at the chance to do anything I ask him to do just saying, "OK mommy". He's always impressing me. He loves drawing, writing, and coloring and I often come into the garage to find the floor covered in Chase originals, or a variety of alphabet letters, or stick figures of our family. He's intuitive and has a memory like nothing I've ever seen. He's always reminding me of things I told him or something he saw on TV or learned in school. Landon is full of energy and love. He is curious and likes to watch people, observe, and try the world on for size. He likes being independent, but is by far much more dependent than Chase ever was. He makes me feel very needed:) He can snuggle for a good hour or more and there are times when I will do just that with him. I know there will come a day when I would give anything to hold that sweet smelling, fluffy dark haired, little toddler close just one more time. More than anything though, they are such great examples to me. They make me want to try harder, learn more, and be better in everything I do. I loved Sister Jean A Stevens talk in General Conference about children and following their examples and developing the divine attributes they exemplify daily. I loved when she said, "These precious children of God come to us with believing hearts. They are full of faith and receptive to feelings of the Spirit. They exemplify humility, obedience, and love. They are often the first to love and the first to forgive." I just thought of my sweet children when I heard that and how I could pin point examples from our day to day events of them exemplifying each of those qualities. These children coming into the world today are incredible. I feel blessed beyond belief to have the two precious princes that were sent to our family.It makes those hard days seem not so bad when I see these two sweet boys for who they really are, how Heavenly Father sees them.